Conspiracy Theories

As I’m proceeding in my training in Somatic Experiencing, I’m more-and-more convinced that a lot of subscription to conspiracy narratives is actually a trauma response.

Our culture teaches *dysregulation*, the better to control us and sell us stuff.

*Most* people are living at a level of nervous-system hyper-arousal that has become an identity, and is thus deemed “normal.”

In many people, this hyper-arousal has the effect of creating hypervigilance and apophenia. For people habituated to this, a state of actual regulation and inner quiet is uninteresting or even anxiety-provoking.

It does not matter whether the “conspiracy” is real. That’s a red herring. The real issue is what’s happening in your nervous system and whether you’ll let go of the “conspiracy” long-enough to find your own deep substance.

And that won’t happen as long as you’re cathecting an identity around conspiracy narratives — or any narrative. That’s the teaching of all the authentic spiritual paths.


Not all the spiritual paths are actually saying the same thing or pointing-to the same “result” of training in their methods.  That is a bit of a heresy in pop-spirituality circles, but it’s true.

The basic distinctions are between “dualistic,” e.g., classical yoga à la Patānjali or Sant Mat, and “non-dual,” e.g., Advaita Vedanta.

There is also the difference between paths that emphasize transcendence (e.g., Theravada, Patānjali’s yoga, and Advaita Vedanta) and paths that emphasize embodiment (e.g., Sufism, Shingon Buddhism, classical Tantra, and Vajrayana).

How these different modes handle the mechanics of consciousness and how they run energy are actually quite different.

The paths of transcendence hold that we’re “done” when we “reach” the Absolute and regard all the intervening planes and all manifestation as illusory or just leela, Divine Play.

The reason for this is in the “ascent” — which is not an ascent the way one climbs a ladder, but an aperture into perceiving each successively-finer vibrational plane. As one proceeds, the laws  of each plane become fewer but more profound and one understands how the finer planes are more fundamental to the structure of existence than the grosser ones … until the only law is Unity.

But when you retrace your incarnation from the Unmanifest into life, following the living thread of the Divine Impulse that eventually becomes yourself (and there are practices for this), a bunch of things show up that were imperceptible on the “ascent” — one of them being the purpose of incarnation and of existence-in-general.

And you see that all the planes are real, according to the appertaining laws of each plane — and because they all arise inside The One Being, they are as real as Oneness is real.

And you see how dualistic the intellectual “non-dualists” actually are.  They understand neither unity nor duality.

On a path of embodiment, becomes our task to live the realization of Oneness, in all of its contradictions, incongruities, and ambiguities, as fully as we can. Even when it’s janky, even when we don’t understand it.

The “Law of Attraction”

I’ve posted my objections to the “Law of Attraction” in a few places, but thought I’d summarize them here.

  1. Most people’s minds are simply not powerful or focused-enough to “attract” (or repel) things.
  2. The Law of Attraction a modern New-Age/Western-occultist concoction, not an ancient teaching. The ancient sages & masters did not teach acquiring things through mind-control. They taught perfecting oneself, not acquiring things, as the path to authentic and lasting happiness.
  3. The proposition that your “manifesting” isn’t working because you have (unconscious) “limiting beliefs” is a slick way to keep selling books & programs when people’s “manifesting” fails.
  4. The notion of managing life through mind-control is very plausible to people who are ungrounded and incompletely-embodied, who haven’t fully incarnated into this human life. These often find the complexities of human incarnation bewildering if not frightening, and long for the simplicity and purity of the angelic realm, of which they have a dim memory but little present-time access.So the LoA promoters are taking unfair and unethical advantage of such people, offering the LoA as a spiritual solution to people who really need a different kind of spiritual practice to take that next step into becoming fully embodied, and fully human, instead of quasi-angelic. They need to manifest themselves first…In other words: “Find the right person” by first becoming the right person.Corollary: There is probably great potential for material prosperity in the Law of Attraction — but mostly only for its promoters.
  5. A lot of LoA teachings are from “channeled” entities… and therein lies an issue. The realm where these entities abide is one of “mind-substance” rather than physical atoms, and you do “manifest” things by mind-control, because that’s how that plane works; there is no physical mass or inertia, and time itself works differently. There, it’s easy to shove stuff around by mental effort (rather the way Heaven is depicted in the film What Dreams May Come). So these entities are advising us from a perspective that simply doesn’t work on the earth-plane where time and mass/inertia are real things.Corollary: Just because an entity doesn’t have a body doesn’t mean that it’s wiser than you — so don’t ask about your human incarnation of a being that’s not living one itself. And some of these entities hover close to the earth plane to try to experience human life vicariously through their “channel,” and they keep their channel and his/her audience “on the string” by doling-out (mostly intellectual) “teachings” to the aforementioned ungrounded people … and I can’t help but see that as a bit dark…

So the secret of “The Secret” is that it doesn’t work.

It’s noteworthy that “The Secret” and the LoA in-general only have much traction in the U.S.; most other parts of the world are not as materialistic as the U.S. and LoA/mind-control programs are just not as popular or visible.

And that brings me to another point… From the perspective of awakening, the soul does not want stuff. It does not even want its “twin flame.” It wants a return to the absolute freedom and intimacy of its own True Nature. So the Law of Attraction is not really “spiritual” at all — it’s just further enmeshment in an inherently-frustrating striving for acquisition that does not help the soul fulfill its purpose, that of illumination.


Painter & Paints

I am living the life painted by the One Being; I co-create by being the palette & paints, not by controlling the brushstrokes.

To think that any of us do otherwise is just egoic grandiosity.

Intuition & Trauma

I’ve been taken-to-task recently, in social-media covid convos, for seeming to diss “intuition” or even having abandoned spirituality for scientific materialism.

So I thought I’d clarify where I’m coming-from.

An authentic spiritual path is about inner freedom. It’s not subscription to concepts or theories about spirituality from some book or created by any group or subculture — certainly not concepts created by those who are not-yet-free, which is most of occult and New Age “spirituality.”

Any authentic spiritual path, and especially the Sufi “way,” is not a spiritual Homeowner’s Association where everyone has to keep their vibe neatly-trimmed and have their aura painted in an approved color.

I am not obligated to conform to anyone’s concepts of spirituality or what a “Sufi” is spozed to look like, and that includes what my mentors & teachers think — which is why they are my teachers.

I am not-obligated to anyone’s attempt to shame me for not being a kosher Sufi — especially those who “fake-it-till-you-make-it” … coz y’all still be fakin’ it, OK?

Inner freedom is not some identity-improvement project. It is not about adopting new beliefs that just get recruited into an existing identity structure with no real challenge or change to that structure.  Spiritual practice is to uproot that identity and its subsidiary trauma, not to make it feel better — and still remain sane while something authentic emerges from the depth.

That’s what actually happens in an authentic practice, and a truly functional ego is built on top of that.

And until that happens, intuition is unreliable because ego structure and trauma are much noisier & denser than actual intuition.

It is from that perspective that I keep saying, if you think the issues around masking & vaccination are about your “freedom,” you do not understand freedom nor how controlled you really are — not by some nefarious external force but by the hall-of-mirrors that is your own mind.

And escaping that hall-of-mirrors is not in getting better facts.

It’s from that perspective that I see how much people’s antivaxx views are really the products of their own trauma as well as their abysmal  lack of science education.

And I see how skillfully our individual & collective trauma is being manipulated by agencies working different angles that do not benefit us.

When you believe your intuition has more validity than actual facts and data for communal decisions and other people’s well-being, that can be deadly.  We evolved-as and are hard-wired as inter-dependent, collaborative social animals. The hyper-individuality of Western culture is a destructive aberration, and when someone asserts that their freedom is impinged by caring-about others, that’s a pathology in a social animal.

A “flawed” human being

You are not a “flawed” human being.

There are no flawed human beings because there are no perfect human beings.

We are simply apertures having greater or lesser capacity to accommodate a boundless movement of being that is life itself — and whose purpose is only more life.

So everything you think, every action you take, every feeling you have, is a thread of this movement toward greater life & greater wholeness.

Consider that.


I’m not sure that the teachings on “impermanence” are understood rightly.

Seems like a lot of people fear impermanence and undertake spiritual practice to escape loss, and try to become numb so that they won’t grieve.

But that’s not the way.

Impermanence is really the fluidity and the aliveness of life itself.

It’s not loss, it’s possibility.

And forget those ego-sops about “something-better awaiting you.” That’s just another kind of egoic goal-orientation that takes us out of our inherent connection to Being. Enter into the light, fluid aliveness of the indeterminacy and let it call-forth from you the person and qualities asked by the moment.

So the task before us is not to become indifferent, but to enter-into the fluidity and find the support that’s inherent in being instead of creating structure to manage change.

Because it’s not the thing that you are afraid to lose, but the aliveness to which you are connected by the thing. And that aliveness pervades the whole of space and yourself; an authentic practice reconnects you to your essence-nature in which your aliveness is self-subsisting. It is just what shows-up &emdash; “just there, like the moon in the window” — when we stop doing all the things that hold us separate from our own deep substance.


Exclude Nothing

Exclude nothing.

That is the true teaching.

All this spiritual exercise is to become free,
which is to align ourselves with wholeness
and let ourselves be unfolded by the inherent wisdom and goodness
that is “just there, like the moon in the window.” (rumi)

On the way, there is a lot of
“remedial humaning”
to train the ego
so that it becomes
a vehicle of light
instead of a compost-bucket
on the banquet-table
of this delicious life.

Reject not the compost bucket; it has its place.
Neither walk through life with one foot in it.